I don feel good.. think im lack of sleep.. panda eye get darker.. felt skinnier each day.. pimples growing none stop.. attitude getting worst.. find it harder to control myself from boiling.. irritated n pissed v easily nowadays.. yue lai yue wan bu qi.. felt tat i think too little b4 i speak.. reali sorry for showing a long face everytime.. felt kinda depress.. i duno about wat.. money? love? friend? i have wonderful family n friends.. i use to be a carefree guy.. happy go lucky.. 2009 juz started not long n i c a lousier me.. having werid thinking.. juz now having dinner.. the service juz sux to the core.. the more the waitress explain.. the more i feel like flippin the table.. or mayb see blood.. =x i kept quiet n finish my dinner.. hai.. y is tis happening to mi.. i don c myself in mi.. i felt different.. izz depression? izz cuz i always keep things to myself n cuz depression? is the evil in mi taking over? wat make mi think of those tots? im not a devil.. but do i need a doc? mayb i juz think too much.. mayb i watch too much killing movie shows.. mayb i juz need to have enough slp n i will b normal.. r all tis excuse? i wan to relax apart from all things but so mani unfinished business.. or mayb i should pay a visit to the temple.. -fang xia tu dao.. li di chen fuo- chinese new yr is round the corner.. i wan to get well.. i wan new clothes.. i wan bakgua =x im tired.. goodnight